About

Alice Grey was born and raised in New Mexico under another name. The name Alice holds several meanings for her. In her childhood, she was a flower in an Alice in Wonderland play, and wished she had been cast as Alice. As a teenager, she was cast as Alice in a high school’s play Alice’s Adventures. She often chose to escape her reality by getting lost in books, or in a production. When Alice was in her final semester of college, she was desperate to put her past and her hometown behind her. With the encouragement from a friend, she auditioned at a strip club. At the time she didn’t care about what negative impacts there might be, she finally found her ticket out. It was a few years later at a club in a new city that her former stage name was unavailable, prompting her to adopt the stage name Alice Grey. She carried the name Alice with her around the world, and into her current hometown of Los Angeles. Had she not been credited as Alice Grey in the movie Pleasure (2021) about the adult industry in LA, she would have retired the name. She could have chosen another pseudonym that was less loaded, but that’s not her style.

Alice was never great at journaling. She has more empty notebooks than half full ones, in fact she has yet to fill one completely. Surprisingly, she has always loved writing. Grand schemes, radical manifestos, creative stories, and poetry. The older she got, the more her writing moved away from simply journaling and morphed into writing poems. Alice has suffered from mental illness for as long as she can remember. When unmedicated, she feels things so intensely that it is debilitating for her. During those periods of high highs, and especially low lows, it is important for her to find a creative outlet before she gets swallowed up by insanity or despair.

She has written hundreds of poems over the past decade of being on and off medication, in and out of therapy, and up and down in life. In her book Pieces of Grey (2022), she compiled poems about love (often painful and unrequited), what it feels like to be bipolar, her experiences as a sex worker, her love/hate relationship with New Mexico, drug fueled schizophrenic episodes, and lots of existential angst. Her poetry is as uncensored and raw as she is, and her writing is both manic and depressing.

Her hopes in putting her personal and often embarrassing poems out into the world are:

1. That people stop referring to non-anthropoidal things as “bipolar”.

2. That people are encouraged to be more open and honest about their mental health.

3. That other mentally unstable folks feel less alienated and alone.

4. That young women can relate and get something positive out of them.

5. That she can heal and move on from the many painful memories these poems were born from.